Confusion and Hope / by Shaun Ventulan

“Remember that wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure.” - Paolo Coelho

21 days. 

The comorbidity of life after college. 

The concept of life after college has always revolved around the unrealistic allure of having a piece of paper that magically opens the doors to opportunities. To a certain degree, the piece of paper does open doors, but requires misdirection and networks. Liberation is a enthralling experience, one filled with uncertainty, confusion, and hope. After years of education and indoctrination, I've become an accumulation of theories, concepts, and facts. I may know these theories, concepts, and facts, but I was not groomed to the realities of adulthood. I am a simulacrum. 

My fear was to walk a life without direction. Chained with myopic objectives, I felt lost. Fear and doubt consumed me during my first week back after a five week bohemian escape. Reality set, and urgency to get my life together ruminated. The idea of not finding a career opportunity was a lingering fear factor that needed to be extinguished. Luckily, I have a flourishing network of friends. As I wait for a response from my last interview, I have another career opportunity in a few days. As I read The Alchemist by Paolo Coelho for the third time, I was reminded of my favorite quote: “when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

Unchained and liberated, life becomes a thrill of uncertainty. Fear is primal instinct that we all share. Facing these fears is what life is about. If we do not encounter grief, confusion, fear, excitement, and optimism; we are not living life. Walking a life without direction does not entail that one is lost and needs direction, but voyage of new experiences to mold a better version of oneself. Despite our finite existence, we will all figure out who we are and what our purpose in life is. Do not forget to love yourself.